I woke up today Angry at myself for letting a dream get to me it was about my cousin Chema and my childhood friends Jeremy and Aaron. It started with me talking to my girl on the phone then she asked if I knew who Jose Navorro is? At this point of the dream my heart stopped bcz I knew what he was about And what he is capable of. Don’t get me wrong I love the guy and I looked up to him and I thank Him for teaching me Everything. Especially about girls But the way he treated them and left them with a broken heart. I knew I would never do that to them I am Him in away. Only with a greater heart Its like Bad Vs Good and I feel so bad bcz he left my best friend’s sister like that Arg! and each time she looks at me she’s reminded and asks for him. But that’s a different story back to the dream I told her yeah I do he’s my cousin. She asked if I wanted to talk to him I said sure but before I do I asked her “I wanted to know where was she at” She said waiting at this bus stop close to your house. Before I said anything else he took the phone away from her and a very familiar voice said “Hi Javi” I asked is this really you he replied with a Laugh saying “The one and Only Chemita” I knew right there I had to get to my girl ASAP! I told him I wanted to see him I’m down the street Then he said to her “How lucky I was to have her and how pretty she was” at this point I remember screaming into the phone “You fucking prick Don’t do it!!” I threw down the phone and ran outside I’m coming around the corner and Aaron and Jeremy are waiting I asked if they where with my cousin they replied Yeah but he took of with some girl.Then to make matters worse they started to brag on how good my cousin is on picking up girls …. “FUCK” I said, then I see her walking alone she looks at me then looks down Ashamed. My heart drops I knew I was to late in the distance I see my cousin Chema he yell’s at me “Take care Lil cousin” with the fatest Evil smile I ever seen as he gets on a bus. I look back at my girl walk to her grab her hand and then she pulls away from me she can’t even look at me. I FEEL SO MUCH EMOTION, HATRED, JEALOUSY, BETRAYAL, HOPELESS, LOST, MY HEART IS HEAVY AND BROKEN. I awake so mad but so thankful that it was only a dream (Sigh)
Its crazy what this dream did to me it took me to my breaking point.
p.s sorry for the miss spells and periods I’m kinda in a hurry lol
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